Friday, February 26, 2010

My Evil Twin

Wow. It has been four months since I wrote last. I have really missed this. Carving just a little time for yourself out of the day is good for your soul. Self-expression is important by whatever method or talent you possess. Mine is by the pen. I watched the DVD Confessions of a Shopaholic and fell in love with her by-line "Girl with the Green Scarf". I debated on changing my site's name to 'Girl with the Sharp Quill' but I didn't. Too copy-catty. But seemly that title echoed the other side of my personality....the one I can't seem to control!

I am a Gemini thus I can legitimately claim I have a dual nature. (Must admit I could care less about any of that astrology stuff. Don't even have any desire to learn about it.)But even though I have no interest doesn't mean that I haven't discovered how to use my birth date for my own purposes. Woo-Hoo!! Bordering on perfect really. Here's a great example: Growing up I was a goody-two-shoes, get good grades, stay-out-of-trouble-kind-of-girl (except in first grade when I decided I did NOT need a rest period on my little rug-thank you very much - so I would whisper to my best friend between the legs of desks and chairs and got shooed out into the hall two times....but that's another story for another day.) So whenever I did speak up or contributed a definite opinion people would look at me and say, "I didn't know you were like this!!' Heellllooooo, people!? Just cuz I didn't speak up all the time...like some others did....didn't mean I had nothing to share. Well, anyway back to my theme. And what I learned was when and if I did state how I felt and if that perhaps was just a bit edgy, shall we say, or was a tad bit acerbic or even just a touch nasty I could blame it on my evil twin and laugh!!! Talk about ideal! The day I figured that out and actually stated it out loud pushing off some pointed comment onto my dark side, everyone cracked up. They thought it was funny! And EUREKA!! I knew I had found the excuse of a lifetime. An ENTIRE lifetime. How darned lucky was that??

Now. Now. I see where your head is going with this. Don't even think I abuse this alibi at the expense of hurting someone else's feelings or simply to satisfy a twisted sense of humor (which I do hav....never mind). It's always said with a sparkle in my eye and a smile on my face. Hmmmm. But which 'me' is it....?